9 Weeks

Okay, I fully admit that so far, I have been horrible about keeping an update week by week.  I think it's my subconscious just being worried about the possibility of losing this baby too.  I'm remaining as optimistic as possible, but you can't help but worry.  I think that is what is preventing me from the weekly bump and general updates.

But, we have great news!  We originally heard our baby's heartbeat at 5 weeks due to my miscarriage.  The baby had a strong heartbeat that early of 102 (seems low in general but for being that early, that's excellent!).  We had another ultrasound at 8 weeks and I held my breath.  I was so, so anxious and just waiting for the horrible news.  But then, I could SEE the flicker!  And that baby had a heartbeat of 162!  She measured it's heart rate three times and it went between 162, 157 and 159.  All of which were F-ING AWESOME!  I cried so many happy tears as Darius squeezed my hand.  It was amazing to see how that little bean had gone from a bright white spot to an actual blurry form.

I will be 10 weeks on Wednesday (so currently this post is 9w4d) and I have another appointment on Tuesday for a general checkup.  I will be 9w6d at that point.  Darius and I are feeling 100x better about this pregnancy than the last, but we will be waiting until 12 weeks to make an announcement to the rest of our friends (and we all know, the rest of the world).  I have yet to begin purchasing any baby stuff, and if you have been through a miscarriage you would totally understand.  There's a little hesitation in everything.  BUT I did purchase a Belly Band (to help hold up your pre-pregnancy clothes) because I am definitely showing!  No, obviously not a nice, hard baby bump... we all know it's a mixture of bloat and an expanding uterus.  Fun fact: my uterus is now the size of a grapefruit!

A bloaty baby bump at 8 1/2 weeks.

Our baby Cross at 8 weeks.  We think the arrows are pointing towards the head, arm buds and little rump :)

How far along? 9 weeks 4 days

Maternity clothes? Not completely, but have purchased a belly band because I have heard from several friends that there's a bump!

Stretch marks? No!  - purchased some Burts Bees mama butter which had ahhhmaaazzinnng reviews!

Sleep: Weird dreams have been popping up all over!  The worst was my ex-best-friend, Katie (who cut ties with me after I told her about my last pregnancy - yeah, great friend), she was in one of my dreams and I woke up all sweaty and confused.

Best moment(s) this week: Having a week off of school due to the blizzard was so nice because mama has been feeling ROUGH.

Miss Anything? Enjoying a nice glass of wine with my hubby.

Movement: No

Food cravings: Nothing in particular.  

Anything making you queasy or sick: Everything. But, definitely all meat. And my dogs breath. And the smell of coffee.

Gender: UGH! I don't know! I had dreams it was a girl recently.

Labor Signs: No

Symptoms: Let the list begin: sore breasts, nausea constantly (mostly at night), vomiting at night (about every other day), EXHAUSTION (like I go pee and could take a nap), random feeling of ravished hunger.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On  

Happy or Moody most of the time: Pretty much both. Darius would probably say mostly moody.  I cried the other night about how we haven't had a "sexy, romantic night" in quite some time.  When I say cried I mean bawled for hours.

Looking forward to: A happy, healthy checkup on Tuesday!