35 Weeks & Things Hormones Do To You

I now get it.  I get what people are talking about.  I am officially over pregnancy.  I always hear about women getting to this point and previously I never really understood it.  I thought the bump was just SO cute and that you MUST miss the little beeb inside of you.  But, at this point I am officially uncomfortable.  Since Lincoln has moved to head down, I have constant pressure on my pelvis.  Each movement feels like I have the urge to pee.  Most of my clothes don't fit and I have zero desire to try and look cute.  I have this curling iron that I intend to use every day and it just sits there collecting dust.  Speaking of dust - let's talk about my house...
What happened to my urge to nest?!  I had it for months and months before the school year ended.  It was ALL I was looking forward to doing!  Don't get me wrong, I have nested plenty in our house but it doesn't prevent more dust and dirt from coming back.  And now - now I am just OVER cleaning.  I'm just trying to convince myself that Lincoln won't mind this environment.  I mean, I may as well wait until the last minute in August and deep clean every single thing because things getting dirty again is just part of life!  At this point, my plan is to hold off until mid August and then go crazy for one weekend and get it all out of the way.

Lincoln is now putting on fat and weighs about 5-5.5 pounds!
He is probably around 18 inches long!
Do you like my sumo wrestler hair?!

My hormones have been OUT. OF. CONTROL. lately.  Let's review the things that hormones have caused to happen-
1. I was watching CMT countdown the other morning and Carrie Underwood's newest song "Church Bells" sent me into hysterics.  Not because of the message behind the song but - get ready - because of how PROUD I am of her.  I was crying because I couldn't believe how far she has made it since American Idol and how beautiful she looked.

2. I have been on this new binge of watching YouTube labor and delivery videos.  I am pretty good at holding it together until out comes baby and they play him on mom's chest.  Then, I LOSE it.  I can't handle how beautiful that moment is.  I cry every time.

3. Finding out my favorite doctor is leaving the practice sent me over the edge.  She is leaving to go work at hospitals in inner Baltimore and I just can't handle (here we go again) how proud I am of her and how much I will miss her.

4. Darius building the bookshelves for Lincoln and telling me how excited he is to meet his son is so emotional for me.  I imagine him seeing his boy for the first time and holding him and INSTANT tears.

5. All of the pimples have managed to make an appearance in the last week.  Which inevitably makes me cry because I just feel so ugly.  Not like the 23 pounds of weight gain didn't help with my confidence but now these deep pimples.  Ugh.

So yeah, to name a few hormones are really fantastic things!

Yesterday I had a meltdown because I hadn't felt Lincoln move much since the day before.  I had tried everything from eating ice, drinking soda, changing positions, etc.  Nothing seemed to get him going like he used to.  With the advice from my friend Alyssa, I called the nurse hotline and heard back from a doctor quickly.  They rushed me in for a non-stress test and had me all hooked up.  Naturally, everything was totally fine and his heart rate was accelerating and decreasing as it should.  The doctor said he's big now and making movements that I may not be feelings.  As well as being head down, he's settling in and not really needing to move much anymore.  I feel totally relieved and also totally insane.  Either way, he is healthy - thank God.

How far along? 35 weeks - 5 weeks left!

Maternity clothes? Yesterday I wore my skinny jeans and my favorite blouse and just felt so sexy - oh wait, that was in my dream- because skinny jeans are a joke and what are pants?
Stretch marks? No changes since last time!
Best moment(s) this week: Knowing from the non-stress test that he is okay.  I'm just at this point where everything makes me anxious!  I want him out so I can hold him and know he's okay!
Miss Anything? I just LOVE summer beers and I want one so so so bad! Ugh!!
Food cravings: All of the cookies.  Baskin Robins Oreo Birthday Cake ice cream. IT IS LIFE.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Still weird about chicken...
Gender: A beautiful boy!  But LOL'ing over what we would do if it was a girl.  Would we just stick with Lincoln?! hahahaha
Labor Signs: None except pressure!
Symptoms: Cranky, exhausted, tired, pelvic pressure, hormonal like whoa, swollen feet and hands, achy hands from swelling, hungry often, full after two bites, winded quickly, peeing a lot.
Wedding rings on or off? Off for the rest of this pregnancy!
Happy or Moody most of the time: I think I've been happier lately despite the loss of sanity regarding his movements.
Looking forward to: Finishing the nursery by the end of next week!