10 Weeks

Wahoo!  Baby Cross has officially made it to 10 weeks!  We had a doctor appointment right at the 10 week mark and our doctor was able to hear the heartbeat by using the doppler!  We were so thrilled!  It was such a nerve wracking appointment, as is every appointment.  Each time we can hear the heartbeat is another milestone in our book!

The nausea has been absolutely killing me, along with the vomiting.  My doctor asked how I was feeling and I said not so good.  He told me that he could tell, that my eyes were sunken in and my lips were dry.  He could tell I am dehydrated and said that I needed to start keeping liquids down.  With peeing much more often and vomiting, it didn't seem possible.  Not to mention, I lost 2 pounds since my last appointment.  So, I am officially on nausea medicine.  At first, I was obviously hesitant to any type of medication,  but trusting my doctor and knowing I need to remain healthy for the baby, I decided to take them.  And OMG HAVE THEY HELPED!  The nausea is gone, although smells still make me gag, but I am feeling much better.  I am eating more and life seems more tolerable.  So, with that being said... if you're in the position I was in, or worse, I highly recommend a little medicine to help with the first trimester blues!

How far along? 10 weeks 3 days

Maternity clothes? My pants don't button comfortably anymore.  They push the baby bump up and it feels awful.  I bought a belly band to put around my unbuttoned jeans and boy did that make a difference!

Stretch marks? None!

Sleep: I sleep well but my dreams are insane!  I have had two dreams that I am talking to my daughter and one weird dream about people trying to attack my house and I ran away because I was pregnant.

Best moment(s) this week: Hearing the heartbeat at 10 weeks and beginning to feel a bit better!

Miss Anything? Last night we got Mexican food and I could have easily had 4 margs.

Movement: No

Food cravings: Lately, donuts.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Meat in general.  I can eat it, if I don't see it being cooked at all and it's covered in any seasoning to not make it taste meat-like.  Oh, and any weird smells.

Gender: Darius and I are both thinking a girl.

Labor Signs: No

Symptoms: Sore breasts, slight nausea, sensitive to smells, moody, always hungry, always thirsty, EXHAUSTION.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On  

Happy or Moody most of the time: Probably mostly moody because I am so freaking tired all the time that by the time 1:00 hits, my students have the worst of me and so does my husband.

Looking forward to: Our 12 weeks prenatal screening where they test for birth defects.  Praying for a healthy baby!

9 Weeks

Okay, I fully admit that so far, I have been horrible about keeping an update week by week.  I think it's my subconscious just being worried about the possibility of losing this baby too.  I'm remaining as optimistic as possible, but you can't help but worry.  I think that is what is preventing me from the weekly bump and general updates.

But, we have great news!  We originally heard our baby's heartbeat at 5 weeks due to my miscarriage.  The baby had a strong heartbeat that early of 102 (seems low in general but for being that early, that's excellent!).  We had another ultrasound at 8 weeks and I held my breath.  I was so, so anxious and just waiting for the horrible news.  But then, I could SEE the flicker!  And that baby had a heartbeat of 162!  She measured it's heart rate three times and it went between 162, 157 and 159.  All of which were F-ING AWESOME!  I cried so many happy tears as Darius squeezed my hand.  It was amazing to see how that little bean had gone from a bright white spot to an actual blurry form.

I will be 10 weeks on Wednesday (so currently this post is 9w4d) and I have another appointment on Tuesday for a general checkup.  I will be 9w6d at that point.  Darius and I are feeling 100x better about this pregnancy than the last, but we will be waiting until 12 weeks to make an announcement to the rest of our friends (and we all know, the rest of the world).  I have yet to begin purchasing any baby stuff, and if you have been through a miscarriage you would totally understand.  There's a little hesitation in everything.  BUT I did purchase a Belly Band (to help hold up your pre-pregnancy clothes) because I am definitely showing!  No, obviously not a nice, hard baby bump... we all know it's a mixture of bloat and an expanding uterus.  Fun fact: my uterus is now the size of a grapefruit!

A bloaty baby bump at 8 1/2 weeks.

Our baby Cross at 8 weeks.  We think the arrows are pointing towards the head, arm buds and little rump :)

How far along? 9 weeks 4 days

Maternity clothes? Not completely, but have purchased a belly band because I have heard from several friends that there's a bump!

Stretch marks? No!  - purchased some Burts Bees mama butter which had ahhhmaaazzinnng reviews!

Sleep: Weird dreams have been popping up all over!  The worst was my ex-best-friend, Katie (who cut ties with me after I told her about my last pregnancy - yeah, great friend), she was in one of my dreams and I woke up all sweaty and confused.

Best moment(s) this week: Having a week off of school due to the blizzard was so nice because mama has been feeling ROUGH.

Miss Anything? Enjoying a nice glass of wine with my hubby.

Movement: No

Food cravings: Nothing in particular.  

Anything making you queasy or sick: Everything. But, definitely all meat. And my dogs breath. And the smell of coffee.

Gender: UGH! I don't know! I had dreams it was a girl recently.

Labor Signs: No

Symptoms: Let the list begin: sore breasts, nausea constantly (mostly at night), vomiting at night (about every other day), EXHAUSTION (like I go pee and could take a nap), random feeling of ravished hunger.

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On  

Happy or Moody most of the time: Pretty much both. Darius would probably say mostly moody.  I cried the other night about how we haven't had a "sexy, romantic night" in quite some time.  When I say cried I mean bawled for hours.

Looking forward to: A happy, healthy checkup on Tuesday!

What's happening in Week 5

This pregnancy has already raised a lot of concern for me.  A lot of people would say I am lucky, but considering I have one pregnancy to go off of,  I am very confused about the differences in my symptoms.  Last time, I was sick and totally exhausted early on.  There were days I would lie on the couch with a pillow over my head and just sleep the day away.  Now, I feel... GREAT!  I can't explain why I think that's bad.  I guess having a lack of pregnancy symptoms is making me nervous. I see a doctor on Tuesday for my 6 week (really 5w6d) ultrasound appointment and I am so anxious about it.  I want that room to give me good feelings, but last time I was there I had horrible news. Everyone tells me each pregnancy is different, so I am taking those thoughts in stride.

Along with reaching week 5, Darius and I closed on our first home last week!  It is the best little first-time home in the world!  It has the perfect amount of fixing-up to do.  I didn't want to take on a house that required a lot of projects because that's just not in the budget.  I also didn't want something totally perfect because then I would feel like I can't make it my own.  Our house is perfect!  We have been in the process of painting and getting it all ready over winter break.  I am so excited to move on Saturday into our first home!  I know Gus is excited too! ;)  Also, it thrills me knowing I have a room to make into a nursery!  This is something I've always dreamed of!  I can't wait! :)

Tomorrow is back to work and to say I am dreading it is an understatement.  I absolutely love teaching but going into the career, I had no idea the amount of politics hidden behind it.  It's that kind of stuff that makes you feel like it's not worth it.  But, for every once in a while to have those precious moments with the kids makes it worth it again.  It's a hard job to explain, but I know the teachers out there reading truly understand.

Let's get on to the weekly questions:

How far along? 5 weeks 4 days

Maternity clothes? Still no, but I am getting bloaty a lot quicker this time around -_-

Stretch marks? No!  *praying*

Sleep: Slept great over break, but I can guarantee I won't tonight with back to work tomorrow.

Best moment(s) this week: Closing on our first home!

Miss Anything? A margarita to go with my mexican food when we celebrated our house.

Movement: No

Food cravings: Olives... green olives.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Smells are starting to get to me a bit.

Gender: Mama instincts say a boy.

Labor Signs: No

Symptoms: Awfully tender boobs, "preggo brain", bloating, cramps off and on, exhaustion, sensitive to some smells...

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On  

Happy or Moody most of the time: A strong mixture of both.  Buying the house has definitely set off my stress level.

Looking forward to: God willing, hearing that heartbeat on Tuesday!